The Somethings

…that pisses me off.

It just seems to me that we’re either waiting to make enough money to enjoy life or struggling to enjoy life because we’re broke.  Then when we have enough money we’re only left wanting more of it.  And all this time we’re focused on money, we make decisions based on money, we work our years away for money.  We live for paper and whatever comforts fall beside it.

What’s my solution?  Follow your passion and the rest will follow.

I keep saying that I’ve lost something.  I’m not sure what exactly, but I’ve felt different since the beginning of the year.  Anxious, uptight, worried.  All the emotions that describe who I’ve been since childhood.  I guess we never totally grow out of ourselves.

In that case I haven’t lost something.  But I have forgotten who I started to become, which is a more relaxed, confident, and live in the moment kind of guy.  I’m not PRESENT right now, I’m thinking about my FUTURE; afraid that certain things won’t happen.  Anxiety has taken over and flung me into a whirlpool of doubt.  So, in my defense, I’ve gone back to doing what I do best – dreaming.

I’m drunk on idealism.  I want to roam as a free bird soaring through the sky, leaving society to gaze up at me from below.  I want to inject steroids into my spirit.  I want to just…GO.  Hop on the next train to Anywhere, USA.

Nothing wrong with that.  Truly, I value this unchained beast inside of me, and unchained it may remain.  However, it needs tamed.  I need a balance.  Because as much as I want to travel, it’s not ALL I want to do.  I want to do many things in life.  Create stuff.  Stories, pictures, music, art, gingerbread houses, whatever.  To hold meaningful relationships and share time on the rollercoaster of life.

Achieving a balance isn’t easy when you have this many ambitions.  You want to do it ALL right now.  You’re afraid it might not happen otherwise.  These feelings are even more prominent when the idea of money is introduced, and the 9-5 threatens to suffocate the cherished spirit, drowning you in comfort for the rest of your days.  You have to trust that you’ll keep swimming despite this.

I’ve lost faith in my ability to swim.  But it’s around here somewhere, I swear.

Never thought I would see the day, me starting a blog.  Might as well jump right in.

I’ll begin with a brief explanation of the title, “The Somethings.”  It is my goal in life to live the somethings.  What does that mean?  It means that you do what you can every single day to make the most of it – without thinking that it has to be ALL or NOTHING.  It can always be SOMETHING.

The somethings can be small or big things.  Most of the time I find myself doing the small things because I lack the money or means to do the big things.  But that’s ok.  The point is that you do something.  You move.  Life is about movement.  When you do something you’re moving, even if you aren’t moving very far.  It’s better than standing still.  Better than nothing.

Living the somethings means to keep moving.  It’s a way of thought for those who refuse the sedentary life, for those who want more.  It’s the basis for this blog and how I will relate to all experiences posted within.

Prepare yourselves for something!